1am Again

Wide Awake

I ended up a zombie today. I took that 5-HTP in the am. Lee came over tonight and she convienced me to take a 10mg tab of Paxil. We drank a glass of wine, went out for sushi drank saki and then shopped for outfits. It was a breath of air I needed. The down side is I'm wide fucking wake. Husband and kids are sawing logs.

I'm not going to beat my self up for the backslidding. In fact, I didn't enjoy the wine or saki much. Now the sushi was fab. Wasabi - yum. I could be Japanese. Redhead freckles and pale skin in Japan - would I stand out? I guess I did get some Omega fish oil in my veins tonight. I'm so not ready for this withdrawl process. I read this paxil board and it's so scary to read these peoples posts - they're terrifying.

My BS are so so. Off to test. oh well, 247. Tested three times today. Had a 65 this afternoon and didn't feel it. Off to lurk on the boards.